im yours

2011-12-13T03:17:00.000-08:00

3 to 4 mths more to go to say a very goodbyeeeee to ITE.Sigh, see how time flies? Im gonna start on my proper job that got to do with IT,no more working as sales ass. The saddest part is im not gonna be meeting my girls everyday like we are in school. No more gossiping, no more haha-heheh-huhu. Im soooooo gonna miss that! i swear ): Hopefully things will still remain the same eventhough each and everyone of us will go on our seperate ways. Two solid years with them is the greatest thing that happened in my life. They've been there for me through out my sorrows. Thank you girls, i love you so much!

So yeah currently having my school holidays. Nothing exciting to share because i spent my time at Crocs. BOO! What a boring life! I miss spending my weekends with "boyfriend"? HAHA.i kinda feel a little bit jealous when everytime i have no plans and my gfs meeting their bf.. so im like the only one stuck at home doing my own stuff. Kinda feel like a loner sometimes.HAHA, kidding. more like i miss going out, explore places, watching sunset with someone special. I miss all that.. but its ok, the time will come. At this moment, im not interested in having a relationship eventhough the feeling of loneliness is killing me. I know i can handle this. Well actually there's few nice guys that ive met. They do have the ciri-ciri of a guy that i want BUT i think im still stuck with my past. Silly me. I think im being a bitch in a way that i gave them hope but i swear i dont mean to do that. I did explain to them in the first place but it seems that they expected more. Im sorry guys, i dont like to rush things and i dont wanna to use anybody just to forget everything. Maybe im an idiot to expect impossible things to happen.. but yeah insyallah ,allah will show me which way is the best for me. Thank you guys for trying very hard to impress me, try to make me happy and trying very hard to be better thn my my past.I appreaciate that and again im sorry.

2011-10-25T05:11:00.000-07:00

"I spent my whole life hiding my heart away"

Hie everyone i feel like updating my blog since ive abandoned it for many months. I wanted to update it often like i used to but it seems that i have nothing to share. Ive been keeping myself busy with school and work till sometimes i dont even have the time for myself. Haa. This saturday will be my First Runway show ever! Sumpah aku nervous giler pig, gfs & family will be coming over. Oh god hopefullly everything will run smoothly, cant afford to embarrass myself infront of the audience and plenty of camera mans around.Doa kan tina ok rakan-rakan? heh.

Hows life everyone? I miss the old me, seriously. I miss going out taking pictures, picnic and etc. I miss watching sunset, i miss everything. God knows how this girl trying her best to gain her smile back. Yes i did smile but there's time when i realized i was just pretending. I asked mummy a stupid question like " why i was born softhearted, i wanna be a little bit harsh so that people will stop hurting me" Mummy say " this softhearted lady will one day find her happiness,insyallah" . I know mummy just wanna me feel better kan? tsk! Haaha. how i wish i could tell my mum how tired n hurt her daughter is. I cant always be strong.

Sometimes the lady that always be there for everyone needs someone to there for her.....

2011-09-07T06:30:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin <3

2011-06-13T19:37:00.000-07:00

haaaliiiluuyaaahhh! haah! omg, its been ages since i last update my blog. I almost forgot my password and had to try so many times to login. Amaaaaciaaaaammmm everyone? How's life? I gain so much weight! Seriously no joke. Mummy said is because im a happy kid! Whaaatttt? no link sia. -_______- Well ive been fighting with time. Busy with school & work . I spent my time at work rather thn at home. Everyone was asking if im getting married since i work so hard -.- Omgeeeeee, its already june! Half of the year has passed! See how time flies huh? & without realizing,it has been 4mths ive been a loner! muuahahhaa. nahhhh! i have my friends & beloved family that never fails to be there for me. Well, well, well along this journey ive met many people. Standard uh when you are single, guys from i dont know which planet will suddenly pop up from everywhere. Hahhh. Ex's from i donno how many decade of years suddenly trying to woo you back with 1001 explainations.Unfortunately,pintu hati saye masih tertutup to get into another relationship*for now* I takut jiiiiiiii ): Like mummy said, kalau ader jodoh tak ke mane. So chill(:

& OH YEAH, UNIVERSAL STUDIO WAS AWESSOMEEEEE!

2011-05-12T11:20:00.000-07:00

hie, its 2.20am & im still not asleep. Well, ive not updated my blog for months. Too many things happened & theres no words to describe it. Im thankful that each day, i've become more stronger . Strong in such a way that i managed to put away those sadness & keep moving forward. God knows how hard this lady above struggling & fighting with her own shitty feelings but hey with friends & family around, she managed to. huhu, im awesome<3 hahaha. Mummy say sometimes good things did not stay because better things is coming along the way, Insyallah.

2011-03-22T21:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TINA!
Hey tina, you turned 19 today. Be happy and stop eating so much ok. U will have a fat face with a skinny body if u continue eating like a pig. hahaha. Stay strong no matter how hard life is. Keep smiling no matter how hurt you are deep inside. Always remember your family loves you, your girlfriends loves you. Enjoyed & appreciate every little thing you have now. Be happy tina, love u! muuaccks.

thank u so much gfs for the day today. Had a great time with each & everyone of you. Thank you so much for always be there for me,for the encouragement & the listening ear. Much love, tina.

"its ok not to be ok"
oh nonono, its NOT ok to be not ok ):

2011-03-08T10:10:00.000-08:00

WOODLAND WATERFRONT

SSSAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPP! hee. Ok i doubt anyone reading my blog, i feel like deleting this blog of mine but somehow mcm sayang gitu. heh,miyang. Its ok, lets take this as my online diary. I post & read it again myself. So yeah, i was supposed to work at ISETAN today but im so lucky that they are closed due to the dinner & dance thingy. Obviously part timers are not involved so i used this opportunity to meet my beloved friends. Rindu sama mereka! Meet ella and than the rest. Ella & me cant stop complaining that we look like hot air balloon. Muka round setidak-tidaknya. I swear i gain weight like alot,masyaallah ):

Spent my whole tuesday with wonderful people. With them around, i feel better. Still thinking how should i spent my Wed & thurs. I dont wanna stay at home like seriously.Any plannnnnnnnnnns? :0

Im taking things slow and steady nowadays. Suke tak suke telan ajer. I know this is hard to accept but again this is life. & OMGEEEEEEE. I HATE IT , I HATE ALOT WHEN PEOPLE PASS MY NUMBER ANYHOW W/O MY PERMISSION. I SWEAR IM NOT GONNA ENTERTAINED U GUYS.

2011-02-26T18:19:00.000-08:00

hello earthlings. Been keeping myself busy these days... Helping out with shooting & then off to work and again shooting & off to work. So yeah, yesterday was the last scene of Romance through the lenses. To be honest, i really had fun working with them. They are such a sweethearts. Im glad that i was given this opportunity. Thank u Siti. I was suprised actually when i received a call from yan. Haha. Like out of so many people, u suggested me. hee. Thank you(:

Still waiting for the rest of the pictures from andy. Well guess what? There's a part from the scene that i really need to cry and i really did :0 Thanks to Yan. haha. Had a small talk with him and OMG ): I dont know how to explain but yah only god knows): I hate it when people ask me "are you happy" Fuck that question can? Isnt it obvious that im not happy or is it im the one who is good in pretending till nobody realized that this girl here is not happy! Theres so many many questions in her head that still need to be answered. Oh men, can somebody knocked my head hard so i lost my memory.Like seriously!

2011-02-19T23:21:00.000-08:00

TOWN WITH NADHIRAH.

Hello earthlings. Reached home abt 5 in the morning just now. Spent my whole day with Nadhirah and then off to meet sis. Guess who is the person above? hee. Malaysian singer, Rahmad Mega is with us not forgetting Haizad. hee. I swear mereka kaki lepak. Had supper with them and we went to the Cash studio . And now i swear im so sleepy. Working with cho wei later, wahduh. Oh yessss, gonna have a new job soon or shall i say im gonna be working at two places. More money, more shopping. hehehehe :D

2011-02-19T05:45:00.000-08:00

SELAMAT HARI JADI MUHAMMAD NUR AKBAR

(i hope you read this)
Well this boy above turns 19 on the nineteen. hee. Happy Birthday smelly! How i wish i could celebrate ur birthday with you, i plan so much already but somehow things changed & i bet its gonna be lil weird if i asked you out :/ Its ok, hopefully you have a great celebration with friends or family. Bought you that wallet, i wonder if u like or not. Im sorry if its super damn plain and i did not even wrap it out because i never expect things will end on that very day ]: Once again Happy Birthday !

So yes to those who beep my phone for a thousand times after the change in status on his fb or whatsoever, yes its true. Please dont ask me why because i dont know where to start & i dont what to say. Things happened and im not blaming him for what had happened. Maybe it is not easy for him too and i dont wish to make things difficult for him. I dont want to force people to love me, to do tings that they dont wish to. & thats the reason why i let him go. But yeah, i cant lie to myself that it breaks me apart to see us in this kind of situation when we used to be so close. bbaaahhh, we cant predict what happened next u see. Saye redha.

If u were to read my blog Muhammad Nur Akbar, please bear in mind that those shits that came out from my mouth, those complains is not to bring you down but to make you undertand that i need you in certain ways.Im sorry if all this while ive been pushing you too hard, hurt your feelings and stuff but you always know i love you so much. Well, im glad that atleast i get to see you for the last time , hug you for the last time though through out,you keep urself silent. I dont know exactly whats running through your mind but i hope you feel me): Thank you for everything, i appreciate every little effort you did. I hope you will find someone that somehow that berjaya to change you. Take care my smelly monyok, i hope you dont forget me, ur irritating ex girlfriend .

2011-02-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, you just can’t tell anybody how you really feel. Not because you don’t know why. Not because you don’t know your purpose. Not because you don’t trust them. But because you can’t find the right words to make them understand.

took out my hair extention.
Now back to square one. hee. gatal :p

2011-01-15T11:13:00.000-08:00

Henderson Wave with bby yesterday. Stuck at the busstop for i dont know how long, raining heavily :/ Thank god it did not last for the whole day. Spent my whole evening there. Finally meet up with my boyfriend after the long chaos. Im sorry for what had happened but please dont do this again, it hurts :/ I love you smelly and you knw that. Muuackss♥

i fall down the stairs and that is so embarrasing, tak cool ok :0
Working later, gonna take a short nap before off to work.
Have a good day everyone.

2011-01-06T03:20:00.000-08:00

BOTANIC GARDEN

Had an awesome day with them.
Laughter is the best medicine & i need more of that.

I miss those time.
The times when i feel the kemesraan between us.
i miss you.

2010-12-29T08:23:00.000-08:00

&&&&& this picture reminds me of............................

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA :D

ok uploaded a few here which some i did not upload in fb. hee. Uhhhh 290bucks for this -.- sanggup. haha.ok nites nites evryone & hapy new year! mmuuaccksss!(:

2010-12-23T06:40:00.000-08:00

hie everyone. Had an awesome day with my dearest girlfriends just now. Had a mini picnic at chua chu kang garden,somewhere near to our home. Miss them like a lot,must have such outing often. hee. One more week to new year, i hope 2011 is gonna be a better year.Yeah,hopefully. Right now i feel so down. I dont know who to turn to. Bby is working, he must be very tired after work. I dont want to trouble him. I wanna call besto but nah its ok. Mum dont wanna talk to me. She still thinks that i took her money, ya allah kau berikanlah pertunjuk ): Her words hurt so much. I feel like a stranger here. In this house,no one wants to talk to me. I feel so lonely ): ohh shit, i cry while typing this. Am i invisible or something? Do i have write on my forehead that I NEED YOU GUYS & IM NOT OK. Oh my,This is so bad. I feel like going somewhere faaaaaaaaarrr,very far. take me. Im too tired to please everyone,im to tired to be too patience. In my life, i just wanna be appreciated. To be someone, that they are proud to have. A simple thank you for what ive done means alot to me, i swear.

I love this guy. We are turning nine months old. Im always excited when it comes to every 1st.Im always excited to meet you,to plan this & that. Im glad that i have you, i love you so much. But sometimes i wonder how much i meant to you,are you proud to have me, do you feel the same,will u be there for me. i wonder,i wonder,i wonder. (Insert name) said something that somehow hurt me a little yesterday. (Insert name) said tht how did i convinced myself tht my boyfriend loves me when all we did is just texting and on his fb not a single album of us. Gosh, i wonder if this is a big issue on you people. Yes, i agree we did not talk on the phone till wee hours like how couples do. I admit that we do argue about this sometimes. But apart from that, he did his duty as a boyfriend.He never fail to text me every single day. & i appreciate evry little thing he . Once a week of meeting each other is already enough for me & im fine with that. We both are working & to spare a day for me every single week is already a big thing to me.Yes we are in a relationship, but remember we have our own life too. And about the picture thingy, like omg? I dont know in what way it bother you because i feel nothing about it.You can have million of pictures in your album but what matters the most, is your heart. Your sincerity. Without uploading our pictures on his profile, i believe my boyfriend loves me. Aiyoooooooooooooooooo, perangai #mulut-ayam. Well (insert name) i guess ive answered those questions. ffft.goodnite.

2010-12-19T18:59:00.000-08:00

Hie everyone, today i spent the whole evening with boyfriend. We went for the photoshoot at the studio. Yea had a great time and i swear im pretty much excited for it. haa. Sadly we only get a free 4r picture and yah only one -.- I swear im having a hard time choosing one out of so many. And guess what, in the end we bought a copy of cd format andddddddddd it cost 290BUCKS.OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. thanks bby for the payment :O Gonna collect the cd at the of this month.Shall keep it for memories. hee. Gonna print it as soon as i got the pictures(: here some snaps, we are not allowed to take any photo taking there. Can kena sue , but we did managed to take a few secare syp-syp. hee

So yea, gonna collect the cd probably next week. I wonder if its a waste of money, pity you had to spent on this. Thank you so much for the time and everything.Appreciate it alot and i love you so much Muhammad Nur Akbar,so much♥

2010-12-15T05:29:00.000-08:00

because i love you more than you do.

2010-12-03T04:24:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum
Its 4am already, im still wide awake. I wish i could just snore like you guys do ): im bored to
death now, nothing much i can do. Nowadays there's nothing interesting to surf on the net anymore.Everyday the same old routine. At the same time, i feel like deleting this blog of mine because i think no one reads my blog plus i dont think ill be updating too often. Or i shall say ive nothing much to update except for outings on my weekend or worst rotting at home doing nothing. So basically hows life? I spent my days with forcing myself to go to school and went to work straight after school and blablabla. Phase test coming, aargh. fml!
So yesterday went to Sentosa with Syiqah & Shaf. Syiqah is going to Hong Kong this coming week so we had a small so called party before she left. Sis joined us since she was there at Sentosa.So here as usual a few pictures uploaded.

Working later in the afternoon and im still not asleep. Awesome huh? Meeting bby tomorrow before he's off to work. Yeaa kinda miss those regular outing we had compared to now but yea things changed u see. By hook or by crook, like or not , i have to adapt & That little time spent together, i treasure it. i love u bby

2010-11-30T00:11:00.000-08:00

Yay!Happy 8monthsary bby! mmuuuaaacckss! xD hee, i love you very the much. Lets hope for the best. Insyallah we kekal till the end ok. Amin(: So yeah, above picture was taken on Sunday. Quality sux, i dont know why.So yeah just a short meet up before bf went to work. Time with you is never enough): lets have outinggggggggggggg soooooooonnnn ok? hee. i love you bby!

Meet syiqah after that. We went Bugis and i bought a proper school shoe like finally. Guess what ive been wearing my kasut jepun all this while. Awesome shit -.-

i did hair extention as u can see. For fun ajer. heh. Ok done, gtg. Just came back from work actually. Tomorrow class starts at 8 somomore. tsk. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I cant wait for school holiday can?

2010-11-22T05:06:00.000-08:00

hie everyone. My blog is just as good as dead, yeah i know. Im bored to death now. Bby is working, i miss him like a lot. We need to have a proper outing soon, pretty please?Well i did not spent my weekend with bf but instead with syiqah since my boyfriend was supposed to work but end up taking an mc :/ ok whatever but yeah had a great day with her. I had a great laughter though im not in my best mood plus my throat is killing me,tsk. Wats up with tht? fuck the weather yaw.ggrr.

I was browsing through my folders & i found this.This video was 2mths ago i guess & was accidentally taken since bf press the wrong button. Im still wondering what the hell did i laugh at. hahha, ok why i did i upload this for? takder makner sei. hahha. I miss you my smelly boyfriend ): do meet up soon. Take a day off for me, pleeeeeeeaseeeeeeeeeeee.hee. I love u, muuackks!

2010-11-06T15:15:00.000-07:00

Firstly i wanna wish Nadhirah & Syiqah a Happy 18th birthday! Semoga dipanjangkan umur & all the best in life.Enjoy ur legal age huh! haa. Sayang sama korang! Shahied's birthday is coming too. haa. Happy Birtday to all November babies yaw! :D

Currently at home, still shagged. Reached home at about 2am yesterday. Went Pasir Ris Park for Afiah's bbq pit. She turn five years old yesterday. Yeah, Happy Birthday to my beloved niece♥ Spent my evening with my family,cousins & not forgetting; Syiqah& Shaf. Thanks for coming girls. Overall i had fun, i love family bonding ^^ but of coz minus the part when suddenly it rains. ggrr.

Afiah Aqisya

Bby did not tagged along to Pasir Ris since last minute he has to work -.-
We meet in the morning instead,he accompanied me to Lavender before he's off to work.
The-person-that-found-my-wallet insist of returning my ic so i have to fork out 100 bucks for replacement. Awesome huh? fml. Ok whatever it is, im happy to meet my bf after 2weeks plus of not meeting each other. haa. Thanks for the time. i love you.

i love u dearest bf♥

2010-10-31T22:13:00.000-07:00

Went Vivo City with Syiqah yesterday. I swear i felt guilty because i bother her like alot. She was having a date with someone yesterday & halfway through she sacrifice her time just for me):Meet her at ard 7plus at vivo and we watch Paranormal Activity 2. I guess this time is better than the previous one. I suggest you guys better watch the previous one first or u'll be super lost just like me. Terkejut-kejut i kat dalam cinema. I swear we both are like couple. HAHA. End at 10plus and headed home straight.

Well these days, ive been feeling super down nak mampos. The moving house thingy is like bloody killing me. I dont wanna move anywhere.& because of that,it affect like evrything (eg.emosi terganggu). hahaa. And that is when i feel like super lonely nak mampos, & i dont know who to turn to. I guess thats explain why I start a fight with bby that day. Ok perangai eh tina but glad everything is fine now. &&&& ohh yessssss,
HAPPY SEVEN MONTHSARY BBY!(two hours left)

uh u know this little cute girlfriend of urs, mulut jer bising tapi deep-deep inside i love you to the max ok smelly?haa. Happy 7mthsary, i miss u like crazy. (eh mcm rhyme pulak,haa)Almost 2weeks never meet):Shall meet me next week. Ok im done here, update soon. && i love you bby, more to come ok.May our r/s last,insyallah. Ok da Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-10-21T07:07:00.001-07:00

I miss getting late calls. Calls that I'd have to whisper in so no one would wake up. Calls that made me laugh so loud my mom came in the room so I had to pretend to sleep. Calls that were the furthest thing from a typical conversation. Calls when I really just let everything out. Calls that made it easy to fall asleep after letting everything out and finally hearing his voice.

2010-10-16T00:48:00.000-07:00

WEST COAST PARK ♥

Had a great day with wonderful people. Went West Coast Park with Sis, bby & his cousins. We fly kite there but unfortunately my kite did not co-operate with me, it keeps falling ): && I swear to god the weather is seriously killing us. Super hot! Apart from that i enjoyed my day.

I love my boyfriend here so much. Every moment spent with you, is the moment that i treasure the most. i love you bby.

2010-10-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA. see this picture above? This was taken earlier on at NUH. Bby had to go for operation due to (ok i dont know what is that called in Eng). Accompanied him till he went in. Everything went well. Its just that my stubborn boyfriend here insist of taking his medication regularly. && oh yes i ponteng school today! hahaha. sardin jer aku(: I swear this time round my time table fuck up. Almost everyday end at six :/ Ok dah bye, its just a short update. Shall post again next time ok.

Each day, this love grow stronger. I love u so much bby!

2010-10-07T22:11:00.000-07:00

Checked out my result just now, alhamdulillah i pass u know padahal i tikam-tikam only. Mini-mini,minimore do works sometimes ^^Yesterday met my rakan-rakan in the afternoon, spent the whole night with them. We ton the whole night at Zul's friend condo. Had a great time chatting with them of coz after all those incident happened. Bby tagged along and yes hanging out with them isnt bad afterall. Whatever happened yesterday is a lesson to us all. Apart from that, i enjoyed my day yesterday. We went off early in the morning just now, mata all cannot tahan already. Satu-satu muka tired. Here a few pictures uploaded, most of them i shiok sendiri using ina's camera while the rest is still shagged.

All pictures above is like belum mandi pictures. Hhaha. Got to spent the whole night with my beloved boyfriend. Sayang kamu sangat-sangat Muhammad Nur Akbar eventhough you and shahied keep teasing me gemok ): hhaha, ok till here. Tomorrow will be working in the afternoon shift. Need to work more this month, in need of $$$$$. && It seems that i have to do my IC since there's no one return it back to me , tsk ): ok da bye semua. nitesss!

i love u very much bby <3

2010-10-02T22:11:00.000-07:00

hello everyone. Im freaking tired now, just came back from helping sis with her andam thingy. Yeaah im one of the unlucky person on earth whereby ur body wont co-operate with you. No matter how tired you are but still you will have difficulty in sleeping. So that explain why im here updating my blog. And guess what? Amsyar is right infront of me now. Yes my irritating nephew! He irritates me like hell i tell you. Ok come lets straight to the point, i met my Muhammad Nur Akbar yesterday. Its our six mthsary yesterday. Happy Six bby! i love you!We went to Sentosa. My intention was to ride luge & skyride but somehow i changed my mind . Im a scary cat i tell you. haaa. Here uploaded a few pictures, the rest macam biase bro. haa,fb!

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I had a great day with you my dear boyfriend. Im so happy that we could make it through till now. More to come ok, insyallah. Yes, there's up and down in every relationship. May we go through all this together, i love you b <3

As for the pictures below, it was taken two days back. Went to bugis with aqilah and meet the rest after that. Had a great time with them, atleast i did not spent my night staring at the wall.

ok da, i want to watch a movie then go to bed. Tomorrow working morning shift. Bye people.Update soon yaw!

2010-09-23T11:53:00.000-07:00

Oh hello earthlings. Since today im super free, i'll update this dusty blog of mine. Im having 1mth of holiday, hell ya rock and roll men! im so NOT looking forward for school re-open which will be resume next month(A FEW WEEKS LEFT.OMG!) For the past few weeks, i spent my days with work, rotting at home and went out for raya with friends and my beloved bf. Yea, so basically the plan to have raya outing with my secondary mates last Monday went well ,alhamdullilah.All of them turn up except for Syarif,he went Phuket. Bby tagged along and it seems that they can get along ^^ Had a great day with them, i love the kecoh-ness. Somehow, secondary mates is till the best yaw!

As for yesterday, went out with ITE mates for raya. Due to the distance of each and everyone of us stay, we reached home quite late eventhough there's only only 5 of us. Last house was at my place. Pity them. So many things happened along the way, wont mentioned here. Sakit hati only.So here ive upload a few pictures, the rest will be in FB.

&& a week left to our 6mthsary. Yayness! i love u bby.
More to come ok.muuaccks♥

2010-09-14T07:54:00.000-07:00

HARI RAYA 2010

to kazen mira, kak pls drop by ur email add to my tagboard. Tina sent kakak through email coz byk sgt nk upload kat sini. Thank u <3

ok the rest i'll upload at facebook ok people. Im actually rushing now. May you people have a great raya!

2010-09-01T23:56:00.000-07:00

Happy 5monthsary bby♥

Well bby, i guess u re so unlucky because u have such a irritating gf like me. HAHAHAHA:D i cucuk ur pinggang, i sing enjet-enjet semut with my awful voice,my imagination yang sungguh kebudak-budakkan, i'll be like"i say i love you kan"with my triple base voice && i have the ugliest laughter on earth :0 But u know, this irritating gf of yours love u so freaking much that there's no any other girl would.*cann?* Yeahh, there's up and down in every relationship and u know, we have been through that too. Plus sometimes ,my sux big time attitude towards you.Forgive me bby. Bear in mind no matter how perangai i can be, deep-deep inside me i love you so much. Lets do this together ok. May we kekal till the end b! like cik hawa said " kumpul duit duluuu" and like cik ayob said"insyallah klaw ader jodoh.." heh :D ok da. I love u bby! im so looking forward to our next mthsary. && thanks for sending me home & teman-ing me to geylang just now. Pity you had to endure with my cerewet-ness. heh. i love you bby ♥

2010-08-27T20:11:00.000-07:00

People! Mum broke my favourite pink glass. Yea i know i've been telling the whole world but yea that glass has been with for so many years. Its a sad thing u know to see it broken into pieces. OMG. howwwwwwwwwwwwwww? & Im gonna hide my bantal busuk whenever im out because mum gonna throw it anytime as when as she like. NO! Im not gonna let that happened i tell you. ok chill. Bby is helping out with the YOG thingy. Ok no, he's working. YOG ended ytd i think and he was paid to help out with the luggage thingy. && im bored now so that why im here updating my dusty blog.

So yea, on the 25th went Geylang with rakan-rakan. Missed them lots. It would be great if everyone could make it. Fadila is not feeling well, hope she will recover soon. Miss her too :/ That night was awesome. I miss the kecoh-ness. Really. I want them back ): Hopefully we can all celebrate Hari Raya together like we used to. I dont want any of us to be missing. I want everyone as one. I miss u all ):

Can i simply have this? i want! i want! pretty pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee ):

& i swear i miss my boyfriend here. Yeaaa, we lacked of communication these days due to there's no value in your high card. But its ok, atleast you give me a call every single night. I love u bby. Yayness! The clock is ticking very fast and it will be our 5th this coming month. muuahaha :D But i sad u know, because the fact is i missssssssssssssssssss u like hell now. Can u hear me b?i miss you so much ): U know when u were out there, ur cute little gf here cant stop thinking about you. Whatsmore when there's no value in your pp8 card.& u know i'll be the happiest person on earth when you call me. Thats explain how much i care & love u and i really do.

2010-08-21T10:27:00.000-07:00

*PICTURES ON HOLD*
daddy pinjam my camera.

oh hello everyone *yawn*. I swear my eyes are half close right now so please forgive me if there's typo error here and there.Mummy merajok with me ): because i did not waked her up for her appointment today. She left the house in hurry without waiting for me, sorry mum): Im such a loser eyy. tsk. Meet my beloved Muhammad Nur Akbar yesterday, we went sand sky park since we bought the tickets that day and have not been there. Nothing much actually but its a perfect place to view the whole area of Marina from the top. Apart from that, the pool. If only i could just jump to the pool, i would. And yah, thats all for sand sky park.

I swear my mood immediately changed when i realized my phone is not with me. Im like so kanchiong spider.Bby convinced me that i left my phone at home but yeaa right, i did left my phone at home. heh, i guess i was so kelam kabut. tsk, spoilt my mood only. Had a great Friday, so much laughter! yeah of coz minus the part when i realized my phone gone missing. haa. Apart from that i had a great day. And about the cupcakes and the card, i hope you like it. It was just a random gift just to make things better. i love u bby! * I should snap the picture of the card eh so that i can show the world how comot it was* Haahaha, i sux in doing cards. & the cupcakes bought it from ina. heh. And again i should take the picture eh, with the icing all. tsk.
But yea, i love you bby.. so much.

Ok readers*if only there is* haa. i shall stop here. Working later, i should take a short nap before going to work or ill be like one cute little zombi ;D Bye sweethearts!

2010-08-12T06:59:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes you just need that one person who will let you talk & ramble , listen to your complain & look like an idiot, but still love you all the same"

via tumblr.

2010-08-10T22:39:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE :D

Sadly, our plan to Sand sky park tak tercapai though we have already bought the tickets. Why? because u know Singaporeans very kiasu. By the time we came, its already full since its a first come first serve basis. Lucky that ticket still can be used on any other day. But yahh it would be great if we could watch the fireworks up there. Perfect view u know! tsk. And since ive no idea where to go we decided to meet up my family and joined them. Had a great day with the rest and of coz with bby. It would be great if maryam joined us. Miss my girls, meet up soon!

Here's the video that we took. I swear the kids is so irittating. WAH WAH -.-

& Tomorrow is the start of fasting month. Thats the only month and only way that atleast i can say NO to food. Muhammad Nur Akbar keep calling me bulat and ya i cant deny it :/ How eh?tsk. Ok people i shall end here & to you bby, i love every moment spent with you, i love you so much. Goodnight everyone && selamat berpuase :)

2010-08-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 4 MONTHSARY BBY♥

First of August, it marks our 4th mth. I love you so much bby. Picture above zaman makcik-pakcik. hahaha. I miss those time though. Im so happy to have you, no regrets and i hope u too. Lets kekal till the end, insyallah. I love u Muhammad Nur Akbar♥

bby & cousins;aki & amir

To think through, the world is so small till wherever we go there must be someone that you knew is somehow related to you or to someone you know. And this is what happened between us. haa. My boyfriend is my cousin friend & i swear i never expect that . heh ^^ ok so random. Its just that i really think that the world is so small. Even aki & me in the same school during secondary time, nahh same class somemore for 5 years without we knowing it in the first place. I remember i was f-shock when i saw his name in the class list. haha. And now in ITE, i was somehow in the same school with amir. Baiikkk. Cousin ku dimana-mana. haha what a small world. ok dah, lets end here. Ive ntg to update actually . Goodbye!

2010-07-30T14:15:00.000-07:00

Hort Park With The Girls.

There's no class yesterday. Accompanied Syiqah to bugis to buy her stuff. End up i bought sandals for myself. Uh finally i got one or ill be walking around with mums slipper which is one size smaller than me which means my feet will be terkeluar-ing -.- We went Hort Park after that and i headed home straight from there.

and i think its time to have outing with my b's. haha. i miss them so much. But it seems each and every one of us is so busy with our own stuff. Uh lets wait for a perfect time, we will meet for sure. Maybe out for buka? Pasti kecoh. haha. Bby is going to Malaysia tomorrow till Sunday which means im not meeting him this weekend. Lets keep myself busy or else i'll be dead bored. And its 2 in the afternoon now, i wonder where is Muhammad Nur Akbar. No text from him. He supposed to be in school but i believed he is still snoring on his bed with his new bantal busuk. haa. I miss him so much already. And ive been feeling so suckish abt us lately. I think i've been thinking too much and those negative thoughts pop out from nowhere when the fact is he's such a sweetheart. Maybe we need a little time together. I love you bby! ok people i think i wanna take a nap. Weather seems perfect! bye earthlings(:

2010-07-27T01:02:00.000-07:00

This post gonna be so random because the fact is i have nothing to update but since i am super bored & my blog is so dead, i'll puke whatever i have from my tiny litte brain here. Life is good, awesome friends,supportive family and im happy with my dearest boyfriend. I love each and everyone of them like so much and i wish they love me too. Ok so random. haha. Lets add pictures to make it interesting.

I miss my lil besto here. I've known her since in primary school & she understand me best. She is like a sister to me. The one that i turn to when i need a listening ear and the times when im in doubts. She will always be there for in times of good and bad. I love her so much!

& here are my pretty girls. I love each and everyone of them. They are my kaki gereks and i swear i miss them so much. God knows how childish we can be but we love the way we are. We laughed like no other people business, we gossip like there are no tomorrow and we share our sorrows and happiness together. I love them like seriously. I remember we name ourselves famous five. hahaa. how cute :D

& here is my dearest boyfriend, i love him so much. In the past, i used to be the one who fall, the one that try so hard to make things right till i realized im hurting myself way too much and i believed i deserved to be happy too. The past taught me so much pain but i stood up bravely and finally moved on.Im sure to those who read my blog constantly from those years understand what i've been through. I thanked the past because it teaches me to fight, to be much more stronger . I swear i will not be the one i used to be in the past if things were to repeat itself again. We people know we can never predict the future but i hope i've choose the right one and i believed i do. I have faith in us bby. I believed if there's honesty,sincerity in both of us and the long lasting love toward each other, im sure we can go far. Please bear in mind saye sayang kamu sangat-sangat b. I dont wish to have anything else but to be with you till the end. Water-pyramid ok?*winks*

& lastly i missed my mangkuk hair. haha. My current hair sux big time. aiiyayaya! ok im done here. All pictures that i've uploaded today all classic photos. haha, gambar legend (: ok bye sweethearts.

2010-07-11T19:22:00.000-07:00

NDP 2010 (preview) with bby !

First of all, i would like to thank fir for giving us a pair of NDP tickets since he is involved in the parade.I swear i was like super excited . So yes, went with bby to Padang yesterday. The goody bag is so heavy and im so jakun. Overall it was a good one. Im pretty excited when it comes to Taufik Batisah (: The day went well except for my hair that pissed me off. Its getting worst each day. Serioushit i look like one rockers sesat. Not much of the fireworks. Probably its just a preview. Its pretty nice though. The rest of the pictures, i've uploaded at facebook. Tengokla rambutku yang buruk itu -.-

Reached home at about midnight. Nowadays, mum and dad has been good to me. They did not nag abt reaching home late.Macam goodgood jer :D I shall try again next time. hahah! So yes apart from NDP yesterday, a day out with Muhammad Nur Akbar will always make my day. I laughed alot yesterday.Whatelse i could asked for except for your sincerity, honesty and your long lasting love towards me. Please do not disappoint me, i love you bby! And for godnessake, the song "oh yeah,oh yeah,oh yeah"been stuck in my head. I even sing it to bby. hahah! sardin jer aku(:
ok people, i shall end here. Tomorrow gonna be long day for me. Class starts at 8am tomorrow and i've to rush to Bishan in the evening for tarian. I bet tomorrow end at 10pm. Tsk. ok im done. Goodbye!

2010-07-08T07:54:00.000-07:00

ok gambar takde motive. haha. Oh hello sweethearts! Ok i know, my blog is as good as dead. It has been i dont how many days since i last update. More than 2 weeks i guess. The reason why is because im so lazy, super lazy! heh(: Life is good, everything is fine. Is just that i desperately need a job. I need money to shop & I dont want to depend on mummy, pity her. I want to be an independent women! cceeyy! haha.

Im trying very hard to have the willing-ness to go to school & i think i did. Thanks to my classmates. They are bunch of wonderful people. Mummy keep reminding me about choosing the right friends in ITE & i think each and everyone of them are perfectly fine. Semue kental2 just like me. HAHA ;D no mats and minahs.

& yes, picture above was given by Muhammad Nur Akbar. He did it early in the morning when i was sleeping like a pig. Thanks for the hearts bby! Appreciate it alot! & ur letter seriously make my day. Even my mum laughed when reading it(: I love u more each day, may we last till the end.

2010-06-27T14:00:00.000-07:00

Lower Pierce With Bby ♥

Oh hello everyone. Spent my saturday with bby. We went to lower pierce since the first time we went there with sis & mom , we did not managed to explore the place due to the time. So we went there ytd. The weather is extremely hot and the itchy-ness due to sitting on the grass is killing me. However, i love the scenery especially during the sunset. Oh my caannttiikkk! Whats more when bby is there with me(: We went off at eight plus. By then, everything seems so dark.
I wish i could spend more time with you,Muhammad Nur Akbar! i love you bby and i think i've said it like every single day. haha. Please bear that in mind. Ok i shall end here, meeting besto later. Goodbye!

2010-06-20T12:01:00.000-07:00

Woodland Waterfront ♥

My blog is good as dead. I only update my blog once a week since i have nothing to update on the weekdays because the only thing i do is rotting at home. Especially now during my school holidays. Tarian is over, i mean the production is over so which mean i finally have the time to meet my girls. Cant wait to meet them. So yes,meet bby yesterday and we went to woodland waterfront. The only thing that attracted me is the green field. Nothing much there.Nice view though during the evening.We spent i dont many hours there and went off at 8. Had a great time with bby.Time spent with you is just never enough. Bear in mind that i love u so much ok b(:

My hair sucks each day. The process of growing long is suckish.Curly Wurly everywhere plus the black-ness of my hair colour really makes me feel like one tamil girl. OMG. But say no to chopping it off because i want to have long hair like i used to. So patience tina >.< & I miss this bunch of people ; ella, nadia,fir,sub, xing ying. They used to be so close to me but eventually not anymore): Hope they are fine though.

My muhammad nur akbar keep calling me dipsy. No instead he called me smelly dipsy>.<
Dipsy is fat, green, and there's tv on thieir tummy && those weird thingy on top of their head.
Uh-ah, thats me. That what bby called me. Sungguh tak cool u know! >.< Ok nvm, i shall end here or i'll talk nothing but crap. Have a good day everyone! (:

2010-06-11T04:04:00.000-07:00

Island Creamery Cums Midnight Movie Wif
Bby & Sis ♥

Meet bby! i swear i miss him. Finally after a week, we meet again. haha. So time pls be nice to me, tick faster ok? We went orchard since bby thought he will get his pay but eventually not today, so we went for a short window shopping and went off at 5plus. Headed to chua chu kang to meet sis and we proceed to Adams Road. Sis brought us to Island Creamery, it was my first time though. I swear i love the brownie, sedap nak mampos. Thanks sis for treating us!(:
My day did not end just like that, we catch a midnight movie at 12.20am @ jurong point. Bby tagged along. We watched Karate Kid. The show was great, worth watching it! Reached home at 3plus am and here im still blogging like no other days >.< I guess i shall end here. Goodnight people sweetdream!

I seriously enjoyed every moment with you bby! U know, i love u so much.
May we last to the very end. I love you!

2010-06-05T08:20:00.000-07:00

Not in a good mood. Everything on this earth seems so wrong plus the bored-ness i undergo now is killing me. Uh i hate PMS! Parents went out, bby went lepak. At this moment, i dont know who to find. I shall say today is so plain plus very empty. If only i could fly, i would! I talked to myself alot today and i find it cute. hahaa, ok tak perlu :D Oh my,the clock is ticking but i just feel like the time is not moving. gggrrr, irritatingg ok. Uh? what else?

2010-06-01T13:24:00.000-07:00

Two months old;
Went yishun right after school to meet bby. We watched Kites. This is my freaking first time watching Hindi movies in cinema. Hhahaa. Well worth watching it though, no regrets. & yes Happy two mth bby! i love u so much. Lets keep it going & forever we wiil stay just like a pyramid! (: Haa, ok enough of my pyramid. I love u Muhammad Nur Akbar!

2010-05-24T05:22:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY;
marina barrage with classmates.

Tagged along to marina since i have no other plans on that day. Had fun flying kite since that was my first time. I was so freaking happy when the kite fly up high in the sky. Jakun, i know. haha. A very good start, our first outing went well. They are such a bunch of sporting people(:

SUNDAY;
bby♥

As usual, my weekend is never gonna be a perfect one if i did not meet my Muhammad Nur Akbar. We went chinese garden and spent so many hours sitting, chit-chatting and nonsence-ing. haha. Why? Because the weather is so freaking hot to have the enthu to walk around. However, i enjoyed every moment with bby. I loveeeeeee youuuuu & only you ok b? (: & better be good when im not ard next week or i'll turn into one scariest creature on earth and mengamok like nobody business. hahaha. ok i swear i dont want to go to melaca ):

oh my,tomorrow tuesday. I HATE TUESDAY. gonna have a long day, boring lesson plus tarian which will end at 9pm. Back pain for sure. Whatsmore i'll be having NAFA the next day.Damn.
ok people, i'll end here. Update soon. Bye.

2010-05-16T08:44:00.000-07:00

Meet bby tdday. We went to marina with high hope that Sand Sky Park is already open. But sadly, is not. So we merayap to nowhere. Walked to esplanade and then to clark quay and then to marina and then headed home. Plus its raining today. And we have no idea wherelse to go. Sadly today's outing is kinda plain but yet im happy atleast i get to meet bby and also he to eat his bubur pengat done by mom. hahaa.

School esok, back to square one! gosh. Ok im done. Nites everyone. Sweet dream and i love you bby(:

2010-05-14T08:18:00.000-07:00

Hello people. Im f-king bored now and i feel like updating my blog plus its getting dusty here. Everyone in this house is asleep and its like only 11plus and tomorrow is weekend! Wahhhduuu, boooooosaaaaaaaannnnnn plus i feel so sunyi gitu.Gosh. spent my whole friday on youtube, watched jelita since i dont have the chance to watch it on tues due to tarian. Well, school is kinda boring. To be honest, im still not used to it and its like already a mth plus im there. I dont know how much time i need to finally have the feeling of "Ohhh besstttnyee skolaaa" instead i'll be like "alaaaa besok skola" -.- i swear i miss my girls. I mean how i used to behave during sec time. In ite, its just so not me. Im so bisu and anti-social like one emo kid.I behaved like one kakak-kakak while the fact is im still a kid): Oh my, i miss how i & my girls behaved immaturely, i mean of coz at the right time. Goshhh. Maybee i need time.Ok i think i should rephrase it, ite mates ,they are such a sweetheart. They are bunch of friendly pple, maybe i just need time to finally have the willing-ness to be there. Do i sound better? haha, ok whatever. Monday to Thursday, everything is abt schoooooooool. And when it comes to weekend, i swear im the happiest person on earth. I repeat the happiest person on earth ok!haha. Why? because i get to meet my bby(: The only time where we spent our time together. I love it ok. I hope this r/s will last. I know i've been saying this for upteen times but yes this is my only wish. Sometimes i do behaved like tootoot. I'll be like one monster nagging at u tak tentu psl, but pls dont give up on me.I love you muhd nur akbar(:
And today,I received a called from razif as early as 7am.Uh yess, razif. His dad passed away. Im so sorry to hear abt that. May ur dad rest in peace aite.

Ok this post is kinda dry. No pictures, no nothing. All words. Terima kasih kerana membaca which i dont think there's anyone reading my blog. haha. ok bye people.

2010-05-09T09:05:00.000-07:00

BOTANIC GARDEN WITH BBY(:

Perfect weather but one thing, my hair sux :/
Uh nvm. So yes spent my day with bby. We wnt to Botanic garden and mummy packed us sambal udang and stuff. I swear my intention is just to have a walk there since i have no idea wherelse to go. But end up we have a mini picnic there(:

I had fun. Like what i've said, i enjoyed every moment with you plus the perfect weather today~ best! Hahaa. I love you b. So much ok?(: Ok esk skola i swear im so not looking for it. Goodnite people.Sweet dream. & not forgetting, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL MOTHERS !
& to you my beloved mom, i swear ily so much. You are such a sweet heart to me(:

2010-05-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

Second post of the day. Well supposed to meet bby today but suddenly received a call saying that aunt passed away. Mom was like gelisah nak mampos and seriously gelisah nak mampos. Rushed to tampinese and alhamdullilah everything went well. Hope that her soul rest in peace. Its kinda sad to actually accept the fact but how hard it is we have to accept that nothing lasts forever.Once again, may you rest in peace aunt. We love you.

& bby,i miss you ):
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2010-04-25T17:29:00.000-07:00

My day was spent with the kaki gereks. I swear i had a great laugh yesterday and i really did.

Waked up as early as 6.30am. Accompany amsyar to Marina Barrage for his school excurtion, "Walk To Be Rich" .Bby tagged along. I swear its such a borrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiingggggggggggg one. The weather is so hot, my tummy is empty and im so sleepy.I walk like one zombi there. Half way through, we went off from Marina and rushed to tampinese to meet sis. She need some help for her photo shoot at pulau ubin and thats explain why we went there. Despite the hot weather, i have fun and enjoying myself with bby while the rest busy photo shooting.

Thanks to my beloved bf here for waking up early in the morning for the bboorriinnggg excursion and followed us all day long without any complains.Thank u b. Im so happy whenever u re by my side, u always make my day. I love you so much.Another week to go and it marks our 1mth. May this love last♥♥

2010-04-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

Tadi aku da update. With pictures somemore. Pictures with rakan-rakan ite. Sekali mood hilang. Pantat. Uh skarang aku boring. Maryam kat luar, besto kol tak angkat. Alaaaaaaaaa. Nak tido tak bolehh. Macam nak jerit kuat-kuat tapi nanti kene marah pulak. Alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, cuci kasut la.

OK STOP IT EH UPDATE MCM GINI.

OK BYE.

2010-04-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

FIVE-ONE!

Ok fast game.Went for the class bbq at teck whye garden earlier on. Half of the class turn up and another half,did not-.- I swear i miss them so much.I miss the kecoh-ness and the merepek-ness. I want them again. Serious shit.

Alrite just a short update. School starts at eight tomorrow. Be prepared to get pushed in the train. Oh my.Alrite people, goodnite. Sweetdream.

Just to remind u, ily u b. haha. sempat. ok da bye.

2010-04-17T10:42:00.000-07:00

HEARTBEAT ♥

Hello sweethearts.Spent a day with my beloved family and of cos my beloved bf today. Yeahh, bby tagged along.Had a great day with them. I hope this wont be the last time bby join us & I hope you re able to get along with us. I know my family kecoh nak mampos.Suare triple base.Hahaa! Ok here, uploaded few picturess!

Sayyyaaanngg sama mereka! :D
&&&& i ssyaanggg bangat sama kamu b! heh.

Ok i've not been updating my blog for almost a week. Busy. Cheeyy. Hahaa. School has already started. Everything seems to be ok except for the distance. Maybe im still not used to it but hopefully as days goes by i'll be fine.

Im having a very bad sore throat.I swear its super irritating and i hate it so much. Apart from that my life has been good.I hope this happiness will last.Im happy with bby. I really hope we can go far. I may not be your best gf or the best gf on earth but i know i love you & i really do♥

Ok i shall end here. Cant wait for tomorrow. Will be meeting my babes and dudes. Hahaa. Kinda miss them. Goodnite. Sweetdream!

2010-04-09T10:01:00.000-07:00

Lets summaries since i left only 45mins to update.
I dont  know where i misplaced the charger >.< 

meet love today
took 174
reached fort canning and it started to rain
two tupai jatuh from tree
rain stop, took pictures, rain again
sit, chit chat,took pictures
mj,brad pitt, mj, brad pitt
janggut man came, we gossip
walk off at abt 6plus
took 174
headed to bukit batok
eat prata,buy fruit
went seperate ways
& i love him

ok fast game. I've yet to thank besto for the fossil watch.Thank you so much besto. And also not forgetting happy 1 year anniversary to both you and yat. Last long korang. And ily besto, everything is gonna be fine aite.

Ok i guess thats all for today. School will start on this coming Monday. Gossh. I have to travel all the way to Mac Pherson and its like f-king far. Ok whatever.Cepat-cepat dua tahun ok -.-

Ok b, ur art piece.
Remember your promise to my jari ketam. hahahaa.
Ok i love u so much. sumpah tak tipu.
ok bye. nitesss people;)

2010-04-01T12:32:00.000-07:00

A New Beginning.

Lets make this short and sweet.
May this relationship last long. Nothing i could ask for but your love towards me, your sincerity and your faithfulness. I hope we can go through this together, through thick & thin. You know, ily and i meant it.
much ♥, tina.

2010-03-31T10:13:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH!
i love you.

Lets have a short update.Its my daddy birthday today. We had our dinner at sakura and the food is like sedap nak mampos. heh. It has been quite sometime since we gather as one family. Even aliah is with us today. I love it and i swear i miss her so much. Ok once again, happy birthday ayah. Semoga diapanjangkan umur & dimurahkan rezeki. I love you! (:
and pakcik goodluck for tomorrow.Must pass ok? ok best. Ok dahh. Just a short update! Nites everyone.Mimpi manis.

2010-03-30T23:57:00.000-07:00

Ok first thing first,i'll update about cousin mira wedding. Here, uploaded only a few pictures. The rest i've uploaded in facebook. Not a very good quality since im using my camera phone. Uncle and aunties still have not upload theirs. They will take like forever -.-

Thank god everything runs smoothly.Time flies so fast huh. Serioushit. But for sure, im happy for her(:

Well, things become more complicated for me.Just like the tangled rope above. I dont know where to start to untangle it. Things did not turn out to be as planned. School,work and everything is in mess. One word, headache. Besto said everything happened is a challenged for me and i have to go with the flow. Ok, im doing it now. But yet i still dont know which way i have to go. My heart showed me this direction and parents on the other hand. Gosh. And i have to take all the blame and that is so not fair. Ok nvm,I can handle this,im strong. Cheeyy! Hahaha, ok diam tina(:

As early as 6 in the morning, i've make a confession to someone. Uh you,you,you. Oh my. Whats up with that tina. I dont know  if it was a mistake to do that.fftt,silly me! i think i need one tight slap.gosh. Never in history i did that,Sumpah this embarrassing.If only i could cover myself with sarung bantal, i'll do that for sure.Ok to you, i've read your post. I believe feelings cant be force. So never force yourself because of  sympathy or any other reasons. But one thing,do it because of sincerity. Be true to yourself and thats the best. Sound familiar huh? i guess its a cycle. Whatever it is, i hope this does not affect our friendship ok you,you,you. Ok da, Goodnite.

2010-03-27T01:22:00.000-07:00

Currently at cousin mira house. Spent a few nights here. And yay! she's getting married tomorrow. Will update with pictures probably on Monday. Take care people. Nites!

2010-03-22T04:20:00.000-07:00

twenty-two March!

Happy 18th Birthday To Me!

huhu! so yes, today i grow a year older which means im legally 18! haha. Lets wish myself a happy birthday, may i have a good future ahead and be happy always.i love you tina :)

Thanks for all the wishes in fb/tagged and those who text/call me. Thank you so much. Appreciate it alot(:

So earlier on, went out with Muhd Nur Akbar to henderson wave and haw par villa. Had a great day except for the weather. We were stuck in the rain and had to sit at the busstop for i dont know how many minutes untill we finally decided to "uh nk try jalan je tak" -.-
Thank you so much hujan. thank u, u make my day -.-

Thank you pakcik for the outing. If only the weather is fine, it would be great. And yes, please remember to take ur shower before going out with me next time. See hujan lebat? heh(:*winks* and thank you for telling everyone that " uh see this girl, she want to learn how to smoke"-.- malu sayer! haha. Ok da thank you again B.P haha!

And i also would like to thank fir for the watch. So sorry that i cant you for long since im in a rush. Appreciate it alot. Take care kwn. Alrite till here,have a great day everyone. Goodnite :D

2010-03-17T02:37:00.000-07:00

sweethearts

Happy 18th Birthday Fad!
Have a good day ahead and be happy always.
We shall have another outing soon aite.
ily gf(:

2010-03-16T02:54:00.000-07:00

Boredom

fairytale

2010-03-14T01:14:00.000-08:00

fairytale

"Romeo please save me
ive been feeling so alone,
I keep waiting for you but you never come"

Taylor Swift,love story

mystery

2010-03-12T23:12:00.000-08:00

mystery

Its 3.32am. Reached home about an hour ago. Went town with kakak,abang & his friend to catch a midnight movie.We watched Alice In Wonderland.This is the second time i've watched it. This time round its in 3D. I thought it would be much more interesting but somehow i still find it boring.I guess im more interested with the specs :D Had our dinner at BBQ chicken before that. Oh my, sumpah sedap nak mampos ok. Here some pictures uploaded but i dont understand why it turns out to be quite blur.

I hate this. Its almost four and im still awaked. I think i have difficulties in sleeping and it sux. I'll be like one zombi only if the clock strikes 5 or else im still active. Like now -.- Gosh, im bored and its killing me. serious shit

And i find this drawing pretty cute. haha. Done by muhd and me.I draw a pic of him and in return he did mine. Yeah we tried our very best to have the similar outcome and it ended up like this. I think he did better. Well cant blame, see who's in the picture ;D *HAHAH*
ok enough, better zip my mouth to prevent from adding another hutang from him. Two is enough.Two eh pakcik bukan lima (:
ok nites everyone.

tick tock

2010-03-09T08:27:00.000-08:00

9 March 2010

Photoshoot at sis house? -.- Thanks to the weather. Not a perfect one since we are using our own camera.Uploaded few pictures here. The rest in will be in facebook.Oh my, i think i gain my weight ):

So first thing first i would like to wish all the best to my friend, firdauz. He's leaving for several weeks i guess to serve his NS . Take care ok kwn. Ok i know you are not be able to read this because you are already there. Whatever it is, hope everything is fine and take good care of yourself(:

And now im bored. Mr clock tick faster can? gosh. Will be watching alice in wonderland this Thursday with muhd and his friends. Cant wait because firstly alice in wonderland seems to be interesting,i hope and secondly because i dont wish to stay at home. Its killing me. But Im sure i'll be like one mad woman when i meet muhd . Why? Because he'll irritate me like nobody business-.- Smack, jotos & kick you can? haa. But how irritating he is, he's such a sweet little friend 0.O haha!

Ok da people. Goodnite, mimpi manis.

Sunshine

2010-03-03T10:50:00.000-08:00

4 March 2010

" Lets play truth or dare,
or maybe just dare because
nobody knows how to tell
the truth anymore"

Sis house, cempedak and a cup of milktea :)

Hi sweetie pie. Currently at sis house, using her pc is seriously testing my patience. I feel like smacking it with a hammer, kick it and throw it far far away. Gosh. So basically today we went jurong . Had our nasi ayam penyek and both of us keep complaining that we are full but still we did not let the food go to waste. No good :D

Ive decided that i'll retake my O and attend night classes. So it means that i did not take the course offered in mc person. Hopefully i'll do my best this time. i NEED encouragement from you,you,you people(: Cousin mira is getting married in a few weeks time so i'll take over her work doing admin cum recept. Luckily its 5days work week and the pay is pretty good. So i'll work as a full time,gaining experience and at the same time retake my O. Oh yesss, i cant wait for cousin mira wedding. Im very happy for her(:

Oh my suddenly i miss dancing. I miss malay dance, i miss modern dance, i miss my ccksians dancers. How eh? ):

wwooollalalaaaaaa! I want this.
ok da diam nanti si brad pitt melayu tu kater i look like humpty dumpty.
>.<

Oh no!

2010-02-26T04:41:00.000-08:00

26 Febuary 2010

Hello sweethearts!Oh my my body is aching right now, im so tired which i dont understand why. Probably due to the weather which is extremely hot.So basically today i did not spent my time lying on the bed like one little pig since i have to hand in my timesheet and return my uniform to the agency in order to get my pay.Muhd Nur Akbar accompanied me,thank you pakcik. We decided to go to Marina Barrage after everything is done. Here uploaded some pictures taken ealier on. My hair is f-king messy. Thank you angin -.-

Meet mom and sis at jp after that to have our dinner. Mummy is such a sweetheart, she bought me two plates of chicken rice-.- Itu menggemokkan namenyer-.-I seriously think i need to cut down my meals orelse i'll be like humpty dumpty. Ok sumpah itu buruk.haa.So thats all abt tday.

Next, school. Im confused and i dont know what i want. Yeaa i accepted the course that has been given.But somehow i feel reluctant due to the distance and some other reasons. Half of me feels like retaking my o lvl and maybe work to earn money at the same time. Oh my, see? No point of regretting. People study hard ok. It feels sucks when you ended up being in the situation whereby you dont which to. gossh.

Maryam showed me this. Mauttt oi. hahaa.

hiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkk

2010-02-24T06:49:00.000-08:00

24 Febuary 2010

Lets update since im bored to death. Went jp earlier on with sis to pass my timesheet to xinying. Oh my i swear i miss working with her. Shall meet someday aite. Had luch with kakak and muhd. Yeah with that pakcik since he was there too. Malu-malu cat, saye jottttttttttooooossssssss baru tau. hahaha. Had a quick lunch and off to our seperate ways.
Ok lets make this our main topic for today. Pakcik,bace nie. haha.Yeaah, u successfully pranked me today. I swear im like one little gungu to believe in that. Panic saye kejap. haha. You know somehow i feet abit ashamed upon how i react. Sumpah tak bedek.Ok da, wont elaborate much but please pakcik oi dont do it again. Or i'll smack you and tie you high up on the coconut tree(:
hahaa.

Found this in tumblr. I find this interesting *wink*
ok its 1am now. Im still awaked. I'll feel sleepy only when the clock strike 5. Gosh. Can i havse some sleeping pills please?

sccreaaaaammmmmm

2010-02-22T04:12:00.000-08:00

22 Febuary 2010

Sentosa With Girlfriends!

Went Sentosa with my beloved gfs yesterday. Unfortunately syakina couldnt make it so its just the four of us. Hopefully the next outing she'll be with us. So yea, had a great day with gfs. I laughed like crazy. Will miss them for sure whatsmore when each and everyone of us will go our seperate ways.Whatever it is, dont forget our 5yrs of friendship aite gfs. Love u girls alot! Haa. i've uploaded a few pictures here. As usual,the rest will be in facebook.

After sentosa i rushed to meet kakak. We went Republic Poly to catch Ria Big Batch. I saw familiar faces there. I can say the show worth my twenty dollar . Love the songs presented by the artist. Taufik dan hady, two thumbs up!Cair saye :D

" im not a failure."
i'll proved u wrong toottoot.
ok da bye.

impossible

2010-02-19T09:32:00.000-08:00

18 Febuary 2010

Gosh i seriously think i need one tight slap to wake me up from this fantasy.

Stop hoping tina because it wont happened. Never.

Ok dah, diam.

so yes,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MUHD!

ok another Febuary babies. So yea, happy 18th birthday to this irritating guy. The one who never fails to make my darah up,nak menang je! Heh. ok may ur wish come true pakcik. Smoga dipanjangkan umur & dimurahkan rezeki. Happy Birthday!

So basically today went to Singapore Zoological Garden. Yeah, like again since i have the 50% off and its muhd birthday tday so its a free admission for him. Cousins and yan tagged along. Oh my i swear mereka kaki gerek. I had a great laugh today eventhough my throat is super f-dry due to the hot weather.Cannot tahan.Uploaded a few pictures here. The rest will be in fb.

Cousins!

Can i have this? And keep it with me in my room. Sunggguuuuhh hoooott!

Ok i think i need to sleep, cannot tahan already. Very tired. Next outing,sentosa! Cant wait. Ok goodbye and goodnite.

Zero

2010-02-16T10:44:00.000-08:00

17 Feb 2010

Hello sweethearts. Watched My Name Is Khan through online a momment ago. People, u guys must watch this. A very good story,seriously. Different from those drama mama hindustan stories. must watch. two thumbs up!

"sometimes you want to explain how you feel but you just cant put it into words "

2010-02-15T23:10:00.000-08:00

16 Feb 09

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BESTO !

Happy 18th birthday besto. Semoga dipanjangkan umur. Be happy always aite.
I love you so much gf (:

So yes on the 14 went to Besto house to have a mini celebration for her 18th birthday. Chill there till evening and went to bbq pit with family. It seems that valentine this year more to gfs and family. Heh. I love it, seriously. But 1 thing that upset me is that someone actually appear on the bbq pit. No it was not a meet up plan or something because i dont wish to. It was secare kebetulan i supposed. He was at that area to meet up a friend. Haha, wth. Out of so many people -.- Cool or what. But whatever it is, i had a great day.

Whats next? Muhd birthday is coming.Cant wait for the outing, i cant stand sitting at home. Its killing me. And gfs, please dont forget this sunday. No excuses or i'll kick korang punye butt. heh(: ok da. nitessssssss.

invisible

2010-02-12T07:33:00.000-08:00

13 Feb 2010

Its 3.15am and im still awaked.Oh my i swear im bored to death. Can anyone please entertained me or something?gosh. Ok lets do this survey thingy and hopefully by then i feel sleepy. ok go.

What does the song you’re listening to remind you of?
- War, Jay Sean. eerr, it reminds me of how stupid i was -.-

Is there someone who makes you instantly smile when you receive a message from them?
- Erm, yes.

Are you disappointed in anyone?
- yeah, myself.

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
- im confused.

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you’re sure they won’t tell anyone?
-Yes, my besto.

Is there anything in your past that you would do differently?
-Uh yes.

What is the latest you’ve stayed up in the past week?
-4am.

Do you like being around a large group of friends, or a best friend?
- Depends.

Where’s your phone right now?
- I have no idea -.-

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
-Uh yes.

Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone?
- Yes, countless time.

Who was your last missed call from?
-Bro, the key thingy as usual.

What woke you up this morning?
- Maryam woke me up and say" Blom bgn?!pergi mandi!"-.-

Could you date someone taller than you?
-Why not?

Have you ever woke up next to someone and wanted to puke?
- HAHAHA. Nope.

If someone liked you, what would be the best way for them to tell you?
-Their own ways. U know, sincerity.

Do you like surprises?
- Yeap.

Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
-Gorgeous smile.

What color is your toothbrush?
- White & pink.

Have you ever had a black and white cat?
- Me? Cats? HAHA. no

Last time you had someone cook for you?
- Erm, someone? 2 years back. *mummy excluded*

Are promises important to you?
-Yes, very important.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
- Mummy bought it for me.

Do you wear contacts/glasses?
-Yes both.

Last Movie you Watched?
-The tooth fairy.

Right-handed or Left-handed?
- right.

Are you missing someone?
- I miss the old me. really.

What are the things you always take with you?
- My phone,mp3,compact powder.

Are you a forgiving person?
-Sorta.

Who is with you now?
-Im alone in my room.

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
-Muhd.

Do you want to be married right now?
- No i dont.

Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?
-Sometimes.

Do you know anyone who is a hypocrite?
- PLENTY.

Are you expecting a phone call?
-Nope.

Will you confess to him/her that you like them?
-Nope i wont.

When you’re in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
- Food,chocolates!

ok Done. Time check, 3.40. Sleepy yet?

` no -.-

and i miss my long hair. how?

facts

2010-02-10T20:42:00.000-08:00

11 Feb 2010

I think i should just stop dreaming and get the facts right. But how? its just so hard.

2010-02-07T05:39:00.000-08:00

Ok webcam sux big time ok -.-

Hello sweethearts.Oh my i miss blogging so much. Been very busy with work lately thats explain why my blog is f-dead now. Cant wait till cny ends and thats when my contract ends. Working at marks and spencer is pretty good. Friendly colleagues and good enviroment except for the journey from home to town almost everyday & 8hrs of standing. I swear its tiring. Ok nvm, 2 more wks and im done. So hows life? Well, i can say 2010 is not a good start for me. So much things happened and im not srong to handle all this.School is now a major thing for me. I did not get what i want and now i have to wait for 18 feb for the appealing result. Gosh. Im tired of going here and there to appeal for some courses. Hopefully 18 feb will bring me good news.

ok people u know what,I am so sleepy. Have to wake early in the morning tomorrow but somehow i have to clean this mess before i go to bed. Mummy is screaming right now. Oh my, i seriously think i have to give away my cloths and stop shopping.

See this?Mummy say macam kapal pecah. So now i should clean this mess and make it as if kapal tak pecah. ok merepek .da goodnite.

sorrows

2010-01-24T04:52:00.000-08:00

24 January 10

Running & Chasing; I've been feeling so suckish nowadays. No i guess i've been feeling it for years. Is just that im fighting with those feeling untill im tired of fighting it, like now. How long must i endure all this? Am i happy? Gosh, a question that cannot be answered. Im tired of running and im tired of chasing. Running from someone in the past & no matter how hard im trying to get rid of him, somehow or somewhere he came back. Came back and give some empty hopes, as always.

And it sux when you have finally open ur heart for someone and somehow that person you re hoping for may or might not have feelings for you. It sux when that person intend to be close to you when the actual fact is there's someone else in mind. Again it sux when you cant stop thinking what you should do to gain a space in his or her heart. Or should you just stop chasing.

Oh my.This is sux. Really): People say falling in love is great but what about one sided love? Is it great too? -.-

Well went to Singapore Zoo with mummy and sis ytd.They are such a sweetheart to accompany me since i really wanted to go there. Oh my i swear the weather is extremely hot, my throat is extremely dry but somehow i did enjoy myself.

I think i want to get something to eat and then grabbed some vcds to watch. I need to get myself busy so that i wont be too emotional. haa. Cant wait to work, cant stand being alone at home. Ok have a nice day everyone.

Adores

2010-01-22T06:43:00.000-08:00

23 January 10

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SUBHAN :D

So yes, happy birthday to my fren here. Semoga dimurahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan umur.Waaahh eighteen already! Legal age huh! haa, jealous gue :D

So i went for an interview. Meet Maryam and off we go to raffles. So yes, i got the job. Like finally? Will be working at Marks & Spencer starting this tuesday. Hope i wont changed my mind. Pray hard that i wont get any calls from any job or else i'll be in dilemma in which i should choose . So please dont :/

Went kakak house. And i did try doing those blending of eyeshadow thingy. Its a bit comot here and there but somehow im happy with the outcome. Hahaa, effort dok. Ok da i'll end here. I would like to grab some brush and start painting and comot-ing my eyes. Practice makes perfect ok people :D haa, ok da. gooodbye!

Im just wondering if you...

lost

2010-01-20T05:18:00.000-08:00

20 January 2009

Meet maryam today. Our objective is to search for jobs but somehow we dont have any idea where to start except for bugis to shop. haha. I spent twenty on cloths and now i left five dollar note with me. I need money therefore i need a job badly. Anyone?

Again i would like to appologise for the inconvenience of changing my mind back using blogger. I think i sux in tumblr. So sorry people, relink me back ok. heh(:

"Whats the point of fighting when we'll all end up with scar"

Fight for love? oh my , im just not prepare to lose.

2010-01-19T05:10:00.000-08:00

19 January 2010

Ok im moving back to blogger. Im so sorry people for the inconvinience.
So sorry :s

Guilty

2009-12-31T17:43:00.000-08:00

01 January 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
Lets say a very ~~good~~bye to 2009 and a big hello to 2010.I swear 2009 has been such a painful year. Many unwanted things had happened and i really hope 2010 would be a better year for me. So please be nice to me ok 2010? :D

i chop off my hair. Why? Because i miss my short hair plus i cant stand the messy-ness. Andnow, its kinda short and i miss my long hair. how? Nie lah tina, tak ubah-ubah.
Well it seems i've been feeling uneasy with my surrounding nowadays. Im afraid of every action i took might hurt someone's feeling. And like what i've said, i dont wish to do so. I've tried my best to move on and i did. Well, its just not easy like what i've thought.Everyone wants the best for them and All i want is sincerity. Thats all.

Imperfection

2009-12-26T09:18:00.000-08:00

26 December 09

heeeellllllllllllllllllllooo people ;D ok it has been i dont know how many days since my last update. Been busy with i dont know what or i shall say mostly because i hate using blogger.Might be changing to any other sites soon.Went to orchard with mary today. Bought myself a guess wallet.hahaa. Im happy because i spent my money wisely, i met my objective and not over spent eventhought the word SALE seriously testing my patience.haha.Went bugis after that and najib tag along. Reach bugis, muke akuda mcm belacan. hahaa.

oh well, everything seems so wrong. I've been very hot tampered nowadays and im sure somehow i've hurt people surround me. I dont know whats wrong,do forgive me. I lost my phone, so people dont bother to text or call me.

Giving hope is the most painful action and i dont wish to do so.

OnlyOne

2009-12-17T07:11:00.000-08:00

16 December 09

Selamat Hari Jadi Ibu.

Syg ibu many-many. Wait for my pay den kite borong ok? haha :D

Amaciam rambut ? ok tak? hahaa. i swear i look like jantan :D

I've been laughing like gundu nowadays. Why? Because workmates seriously rock my day.

Except for some attitude from a granny who act like a big mama. Benci i sama dia. See thhe picture above? I swear we laughed like nobody bussiness. Kecik tapi nk step good-good jer, hahaa. ok , dosa saye:D

ok da. Im leaving tomorrow. Will be back on Sunday;D

nitesss!

pretending

2009-12-06T05:41:00.001-08:00

06 December 09

Went Marina Barrage with Mary. I swear today is "Bingit Day". Mary was unhappy with her hair and i had to accompany her to the toilet more than twice. As for me, i was fuck-up with my camera.Seriously. Most of the pictures was too bright with flash. And is gonna be very blur without flash. Addooii, darah mengirap. Ok here uploaded some pictures.

I still cant believe that i only had nasi lemak in the morning and cheesefries for lunch. Wahh, gini mcm hari2, double chin hilang dok :D

Mr clock is thicking v. fast. Mr Monday will take over Mr Sunday which mean tomorrow i'll be working and have to wake up as early as 6.00 in the morning. Addooii, malasnyer. Cant wait for my pay. Tuesday please come fast. I want to shop, i want to watch new moon, i want to eat at pastamania and i want to get myself and mummy a new pair of sandals. hahaa. Slipper saya putus):

Ok i seriously have no idea what i should update. My mind is seriously empty. I've been staring for almost an hour untill i decided to end here. So readers goOd nite. Mimpi manis :D

with lotslots of love,

Martina

Obstacle

2009-12-02T03:16:00.000-08:00

02 December 09

Was browsing through my folder and i found those pictures above. It was taken 2years back. I miss my short hair. I feel like choping off my hair since it started to be curly-wirly. So how? Well still in consideration. Andand i miss those outing we had. We shall have another outing soon aite besto(:

kakak and nurul will be joining us. how cool :D

Yesterday was a disaster. The headache was just too much and i really feel like banging my head against the wall. I ZZZzzz off as early as 9 untill i received a call from mary. She brought a news which really menambahkan lagi kepeninganku. Whats up with guys nowadays. Serious shit. Nah, nevermind. Wont elaborate much. Biarla Karma itu ada. Besto i need you.

escape

2009-11-28T23:56:00.000-08:00

29 November 09

Fuck my weekend-.- I swear I'm bored to death. Mummy promised me to bring me out but somehow she cancelled the plan.Been sitting in front of the lappy throughout the day, my eyes are getting smaller like the size of ikan bilis plus those sleepless night really makes me look like a zombi. Well i have to say that I'm proud of myself. Why? I blocked R in msn & I ignored his call. And i seriously think that it is something i should really proud of because running away from him is the hardest thing for me to do. That explain how many times I've changed my number but end up.... hahaa,nvm. I knew you need me only when there's no one stand by you. I rather be far than letting you making use of me.Well, I've been browsing through some photos of vespa and slr camera. I wish i could own them, seriously i adore them fcking much. Money-Money, thats the issue.

I want to scream. I wish someone could entertain me ): I feel like jumping down the building. I want to go out but i dont know where i should go. Gosh, i swear this is the worst feeling ever.

& I miss India ):

Empty Promises

2009-11-26T03:37:00.000-08:00

26 November 2009

We look like two ugly aliens, i know. Ok lets reveal to the public, hahha. It has been almost 2weeks Mary and i has been working in a rubber factory. Yeah, people say minah kilang gitu. Its fine with us. Whats more important is the pay. Its a good pay i have to say.Overall the job was simply easy.All we did was to organise those rubber in a tray. Itu sahaja. If only not because of the ugly green jumpsuit, it would be perfect. Ok i cant wait for my pay, i want to shop like crazy and i seriously need a new earpiece.

PROM NIGHT AT HOLIDAY INN HOTEL

I was too tired to update about the prom night. It was held at Holiday Inn Hotel on 23 November. The prom was awesome. No regrets of coming. The food,the games and the place was Super! Oh i love the dance floor. It will be a memorable night for us.How i wish all my classmates were there. I swear I'm gonna miss them so much (; Uploaded some picture, the rest i've uploaded it at facebook. Fuck my camera for being such a toottoot. Most of the picture was too bright due to the strong flash. Thanks to liyana's and mary's camera.

Number 1: Guys are good in words. Envy them-.-
Number 2: i strongly believe that if someone really loves u,he will never give up & if he does, thats explain evrything(:

Doubts

2009-11-21T09:44:00.000-08:00

POPEYES!

Headed to city hall with mary to have our meal at popeyes. Subhan tagged along with us. He seems to be a little bit different today. So quiet,I wonder why. So here some preview of it, the rest i've uploaded it at facebook(:

Tummy hurts plus headache,its killing me. Its 2.30am and I cant sleep): So many things in mind. Someone please slap my face hard and knocked some sence in me. Im running away from someone. Its just too complicated for me to handle this. Im trying very hard to gain the trust. I swear ive tried but i failed. Why?~~Facebook explain everything.~~ Probably i react too fast without asking the truth but i just cant accept anymore explaination. Whether its u or is it im the one who behaving like one little kiddo, i guess it would be great if we remain as friends. Im sorry my friend if doing this might hurt u. The actual fact, im hurt too ):

~If only you knew...

confussion

2009-11-16T17:48:00.000-08:00

Went for a few interview with kakak and nad yesterday. Hopefully they will called me asap coz i really need a job badly. I need *keching-keching* for my expenses. Im broke right now. I left with a purple note and some ten cent coins ONLY -.-

I feel like *hiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkk* a kungfu kick on people's butt. Gosh, whats wrong with me. I feel so empty. Meet besto, yat and najib yesterday. Wont elaborate much abt this because hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu. I swear its such a disaster. I wish things wont be repeated again. I dont know if im the one who being too emotional. Besto has the point that probably the past has taught me not to fall easily with their words but somehow i should not let the past ruined my trust to others. Yes, i certainly agree with her. But yet, i do still have my right to decide whats best for me because i seriously afraid of being hurt. But again, i have to put away those fear to give myself a chance and others to proof how great love can be. But im still afraid.But how long am i going to let those fear overcome me. But ...Ok, see? how many BUT i used in this post. This explain how tidak tenteram nyer diri saye. At a certain time, i guess its time for me to give others a chance but not long after i guess i prefer being this way. Im dying of living in this fear and confussion ): Its not easy for me. Seriously.

And kakak introduced this to me. Lamebook!haha. wth? Its somehow similar to facebook i guess. haa. mcm2.And razif found a job as a pembunuh binatang. haha. whateverla, happy for him.

faith

2009-11-12T09:01:00.000-08:00

OUTING WITH GIRLFRIENDS!
Celebrated nad's belated and ina's advance birthday at botanic garden.

The rest of the picture will be uploaded at facebook. Too many to upload it here.

I had a great day with my gfs.If only the weather is fine, it would be perfect! Finally we have the chance to have such outing! Why? Because o level is finally over. Im so f-king happy ok people. haa! But of coz im so not looking forward for the results. I swear that day will be a nightmare for me. Well, its 2am. I cant sleep ): Someone, please give me some sleeping pills.

~i wish i could changed you

four

2009-11-09T04:30:00.000-08:00

HAPPY FOUR YEARS OLD DARLING!

Be a good little girl in the future just like ur makcik ok?

i love u my irritating niece!

So yeah its afiah aqisyah birthday day. She turns 4 years old today. Spent my day with kakak and family. Went to pasir ris and headed home and we had piiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzza ;D

Ok here people, i dump everything here. Got to rushed. I really need to store some peribahasa atleast. Esok mt paper. Damn it!

Ok i seriously need to stuck some peribahasa in my head. Gotta go people.

XOXO

Secrecy

2009-11-06T02:14:00.000-08:00

Happy Seventeen Birthday B! Be happy always. Ily.

Bio paper done! left two more papers and thats it,we re free! I seriously need to find a job asap. No money no pretty outfit for prom. haa!

Oh my, i dont know why im avoiding people ard me. Im afraid with my presence, i might give people hope. When that situation happened, i swear i'll feel guilty. Someone said im such a stubborn little girl who still insist to moveon eventhough someone past has already moveon. No, dont get me wrong because I am already moving on and i really do. Well, i guess moving on does not mean there must be a replacement kan kwn? Iwill when the time comes. Its just that for now,i dont see sincerity in anyone. Remember kwn, finding a replacement will never heal the pain instead it might add more to it. And of course, im not ready for that.

fftt, ok im going to dragged mummy to eat prata. Im craving for prata telur now. Have a nice day everyone!

Outing-outing with f-5. Cant wait :D

mundane

2009-11-04T03:49:00.000-08:00

i feel like screaming and kicking people's butt. My tummy irritates me by making some irritating noise. Mummy left me with no food but she left afiah instead. She look like a chicken to me now. Addooi lapar perut aku. Geo paper today, i shall say it was a OK paper. Hopefully, results might turn out well. Currently listening to revenge is sweeter recommended by mary. Gosh, super nice song. Very meaningful. As days goes by, i thought i would be ready to over come those fear. To give myself a chance to love another human. But it seems till today those fear is getting stronger. And with that, i've let few people down. My appology.Been bloghopped, and i overcome a few painful stories by some girls who have been treated badly by their heartless bf. Come and go as when as they like. Shiok uh gitu? dumbass.im sure those pain can never be heal. Now, this explain why wujudnye LOVE between same sex ;D haha, ok dont have the wrong idea.

Not Once but twice

2009-11-02T04:31:00.000-08:00

Firstly, im back! :D

ok what a boring introduction but yah i've decided to re-open my blog since O lvl finishing sooon. So BIB yay people! *wink* i cant wait for 11 november. I've longed to go for shopping and outing with gfs. So mr clock tick faster ok? However, im afraid results might not turn out well. No maths, no science means no poly. Die.

Was browsing through tagged and i've found something tootoot. It gave a little impact on me. But im sure i will be fine since this is not something new. Tomorrow, will be third november. It will be the 5th mth for both mary and i being single. i guess nothing to be ashame off. To start another round of relationship is my greatest fear. Having to see my surroundings and those painful past, i swear im not ready, I wish im not giving anyone empty hope because i know it hurts.

2009-10-06T02:17:00.000-07:00

HHEEEEEEEEEEEELLLO HUMANS!

Watch Phobia 2 with rakan-rakan on Thursday.

People Go watch ok? Good movie, tak bedek.

FAME

Ok see ? Both mary and i will never sedar that we left less than 20 days to our o lvl examination. Someone pls kick our butt and knocked some sence in our head can?

So basically,went causeway again to catch fame with those people below. Mereka kaki gerek ok. I had fun seriously. Reached home ard 10plus and mummy turn into monster>.<

Ok i know i look masai dan bacin.

Alright i promised this willl be the last outing untill o lvel is officially over.

Take care people!

2009-10-03T22:11:00.000-07:00

A DAY WITH BESTO

blom mandi :D
Blogger kinda kuku huh? -.-

Spent my precious friday with aminah besto.Stay a night at her crib and i swear i had a great day!Aminah is so violent, i dont understand why. She cubit and bantai me and again cubit and bantai me. ok i sound so fake. But still i love her. We baked cookies and brownie, but somehow our cookies look like lempeng. Blame me for pouring too much h20.

Well it is third of october. Which mean its my 4th mth of being single. haha. Time is f-king fast i tell u . Everything seems to happened in blink of an eye. Without realizing it, i've survived for 4mths. Same goes to mary. so cheers b! well as for me, its not eeasy whatsmore when cinta itu begitu kuat. I wont elaborate much bcause what past is past.I am sure those setia readers must be cursing coming to my blog. Why? Because my blog is so f-king empty unlike dulu where i used to update every week with pictures of outing here and there with exbf. Appologised for the emptiness here. O lvl is just around the corner . I left more or less 20 days before i sit for my first paper. I just cant wait to end this fast, seriously.

Why must i understand you, when you dont even learn how to understand me.

2009-09-26T11:39:00.000-07:00

LIBRA BABIES,

Mary,Ella dan Razif.

Selamat Hari Jadi to all three of u aite.

Be happy always, May god bless ya.

Beraya-ing with friends ytd, till midnight. Had a great day with them whatsmore this year will be the last year we will be in CCKSS. Each of us will go our own ways next year):

And my pretty feet hurts. Thanks to the blister.

HARI RAYA 2009

The rest of the pic will be at facebook. Too much to upload here.

Well people, i would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya to all the muslim.

Seandainya ada salah dan silap atau terkasar bahasa, maaf kan saya.

much love, martina.

2009-09-24T04:15:00.001-07:00

I'll Update Soon. Promise.

2009-09-10T15:30:00.000-07:00

Ok mary. Since u keep complaining ur current hair is too flat.

I giv you nice one! nah! Volume maut :D

Fffft.Its only 2:51pm and my tummy is already making some noise,begging for food :/how?
Blame me for not waking up during sahur. tsk. ok woke up late today and i missed my bio lesson. Rushed to school for maths and end up, merempat di canteen with gf since not many of them going. Three hours of maths? no thank you. So basically today, i wasted my 55cents of going to school doing nothing. ok,Went kampung gelam wif zul ytd. Our plan was to break our fast at geylang but since i bet geylang will be fulled of humans so we break our fast at kampung gelam instead. Had my nasi goreng kampung and now im craving for gado-gad0 :D

Someone asked "are you happy tina?" A very simple question yet difficult to answer. God knows.

Dear Diary

2009-09-07T19:55:00.000-07:00

BREAKFAST AT GEYLANG

Hello earthlings. It has been blabladays since i update my blog. Went breakfast with mary at geylang yesterday. Supposed to be four of us, but someone dissapoint mary :/ So end up,hanya kami berdua. Ok better not drag this matter, makesure next time u can make it ok abg polis. My leg is aching . Why? Because it took us almost an hour to queue up for my hokien mee and mary's kwea teow. tsk.

Mummy upset me yesterday and i swear i feel real down.Wont elaborate much but somehow i feel that its not fair. How i wish she knew i was trying very hard to forget the past. How i wish she knew how pain it was to listen to those word that she said . How i wish she knew her daughter was in pain ): ffft.

Back to school today. Everyone was asking about my pox. Hahah. Its kinda jijiks to look at it. Hopefully it will be gone by raya. I dont want to have polka dots all over me. Tak glam >.<
Alright people, im running out of words. Willl update real soon aite . Keep the tagboard alive.Thank you.

2009-08-23T21:39:00.000-07:00

A super tiring day. Im having a big headache which i swear its killing me. And i wonder why i've been so hot tampered these days till i slap amsyar's face like twice today. He then cried so badly which i feel like giving him one punch on his face. Ok thats how panas baran i am these days. And suddenly i received a last min call for photoshoot. I dont want to because its ramadhan and im afraid saya tak larat plus the pathetic headache which makes me feel that im carrying a bola bowling on top pf my head. However, i need money badly coz im broke. I dont get any allowance during ramadhan, so i agreed.

Pictures above is taken by kak nora camera. Too much to upload all.

Will upload the actual one when i received from the cameramen.

STUDY WITH GIRLFRIENDS AT WOODLAND LIBRARY .

so bacically went woodland to have some revision with girlfriends yesterday.

GOODNITE READERS.

2009-08-16T10:55:00.000-07:00

LESSONS LEARNED BY CARRIE UNDERWOOD

i swear its a wondeful song people. Very meaningful!

sedih saya ):

There's some things that I regret,

Some words I wish had gone unsaid,

Some starts,

That had some bitter endings,

Been some bad times I've been through,

Damage I cannot undo,

Some things,

I wish I could do all all over again,

But it don't really matter,Life gets that much harder,

It makes you that much stronger,

Oh, some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were,Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,

Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,

Every change, life has thrown me,

I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,

I'm grateful, for every scar,

Some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were lessons learned.

There's mistakes that I have made,

Some chances I just threw away,

Some roads,I never should've taken,

Been some signs I didn't see,

Hearts that I hurt needlessly,

Some wounds,

That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,

But it don't make no difference,

The past can't be rewritten,

You get the life you're given,

Oh, some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were,Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,

Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,

Every change, life has thrown me,

I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,I

'm grateful, for every scar,

Some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were lessons learned.

And all the things that break you,

Are all the things that make you strong,

You can't change the past,

Cause it's gone,

And you just gotta move on,

Because it's all,Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,

Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,

Every change, life has thrown me,I

'm thankful, for every break in my heart,

I'm grateful, for every scar,

Some pages turned,Some bridges burned,

But there were lessons learned,

Oh, some pages turned,Some bridges burned,

But there were lessons learned,Lessons learned.