So yeah currently having my school holidays. Nothing exciting to share because i spent my time at Crocs. BOO! What a boring life! I miss spending my weekends with "boyfriend"? HAHA.i kinda feel a little bit jealous when everytime i have no plans and my gfs meeting their bf.. so im like the only one stuck at home doing my own stuff. Kinda feel like a loner sometimes.HAHA, kidding. more like i miss going out, explore places, watching sunset with someone special. I miss all that.. but its ok, the time will come. At this moment, im not interested in having a relationship eventhough the feeling of loneliness is killing me. I know i can handle this. Well actually there's few nice guys that ive met. They do have the ciri-ciri of a guy that i want BUT i think im still stuck with my past. Silly me. I think im being a bitch in a way that i gave them hope but i swear i dont mean to do that. I did explain to them in the first place but it seems that they expected more. Im sorry guys, i dont like to rush things and i dont wanna to use anybody just to forget everything. Maybe im an idiot to expect impossible things to happen.. but yeah insyallah ,allah will show me which way is the best for me. Thank you guys for trying very hard to impress me, try to make me happy and trying very hard to be better thn my my past.I appreaciate that and again im sorry.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TINA!
Hey tina, you turned 19 today. Be happy and stop eating so much ok. U will have a fat face with a skinny body if u continue eating like a pig. hahaha. Stay strong no matter how hard life is. Keep smiling no matter how hurt you are deep inside. Always remember your family loves you, your girlfriends loves you. Enjoyed & appreciate every little thing you have now. Be happy tina, love u! muuaccks.

thank u so much gfs for the day today. Had a great time with each & everyone of you. Thank you so much for always be there for me,for the encouragement & the listening ear. Much love, tina.

"its ok not to be ok"
oh nonono, its NOT ok to be not ok ):

WOODLAND WATERFRONT


SSSAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPP! hee. Ok i doubt anyone reading my blog, i feel like deleting this blog of mine but somehow mcm sayang gitu. heh,miyang. Its ok, lets take this as my online diary. I post & read it again myself. So yeah, i was supposed to work at ISETAN today but im so lucky that they are closed due to the dinner & dance thingy. Obviously part timers are not involved so i used this opportunity to meet my beloved friends. Rindu sama mereka! Meet ella and than the rest. Ella & me cant stop complaining that we look like hot air balloon. Muka round setidak-tidaknya. I swear i gain weight like alot,masyaallah ):

















Spent my whole tuesday with wonderful people. With them around, i feel better. Still thinking how should i spent my Wed & thurs. I dont wanna stay at home like seriously.Any plannnnnnnnnnns? :0


Im taking things slow and steady nowadays. Suke tak suke telan ajer. I know this is hard to accept but again this is life. & OMGEEEEEEE. I HATE IT , I HATE ALOT WHEN PEOPLE PASS MY NUMBER ANYHOW W/O MY PERMISSION. I SWEAR IM NOT GONNA ENTERTAINED U GUYS.

hello earthlings. Been keeping myself busy these days... Helping out with shooting & then off to work and again shooting & off to work. So yeah, yesterday was the last scene of Romance through the lenses. To be honest, i really had fun working with them. They are such a sweethearts. Im glad that i was given this opportunity. Thank u Siti. I was suprised actually when i received a call from yan. Haha. Like out of so many people, u suggested me. hee. Thank you(:












Still waiting for the rest of the pictures from andy. Well guess what? There's a part from the scene that i really need to cry and i really did :0 Thanks to Yan. haha. Had a small talk with him and OMG ): I dont know how to explain but yah only god knows): I hate it when people ask me "are you happy" Fuck that question can? Isnt it obvious that im not happy or is it im the one who is good in pretending till nobody realized that this girl here is not happy! Theres so many many questions in her head that still need to be answered. Oh men, can somebody knocked my head hard so i lost my memory.Like seriously!

Hello earthlings. Reached home abt 5 in the morning just now. Spent my whole day with Nadhirah and then off to meet sis. Guess who is the person above? hee. Malaysian singer, Rahmad Mega is with us not forgetting Haizad. hee. I swear mereka kaki lepak. Had supper with them and we went to the Cash studio . And now i swear im so sleepy. Working with cho wei later, wahduh. Oh yessss, gonna have a new job soon or shall i say im gonna be working at two places. More money, more shopping. hehehehe :D

SELAMAT HARI JADI MUHAMMAD NUR AKBAR

(i hope you read this)
Well this boy above turns 19 on the nineteen. hee. Happy Birthday smelly! How i wish i could celebrate ur birthday with you, i plan so much already but somehow things changed & i bet its gonna be lil weird if i asked you out :/ Its ok, hopefully you have a great celebration with friends or family. Bought you that wallet, i wonder if u like or not. Im sorry if its super damn plain and i did not even wrap it out because i never expect things will end on that very day ]: Once again Happy Birthday !


So yes to those who beep my phone for a thousand times after the change in status on his fb or whatsoever, yes its true. Please dont ask me why because i dont know where to start & i dont what to say. Things happened and im not blaming him for what had happened. Maybe it is not easy for him too and i dont wish to make things difficult for him. I dont want to force people to love me, to do tings that they dont wish to. & thats the reason why i let him go. But yeah, i cant lie to myself that it breaks me apart to see us in this kind of situation when we used to be so close. bbaaahhh, we cant predict what happened next u see. Saye redha.

If u were to read my blog Muhammad Nur Akbar, please bear in mind that those shits that came out from my mouth, those complains is not to bring you down but to make you undertand that i need you in certain ways.Im sorry if all this while ive been pushing you too hard, hurt your feelings and stuff but you always know i love you so much. Well, im glad that atleast i get to see you for the last time , hug you for the last time though through out,you keep urself silent. I dont know exactly whats running through your mind but i hope you feel me): Thank you for everything, i appreciate every little effort you did. I hope you will find someone that somehow that berjaya to change you. Take care my smelly monyok, i hope you dont forget me, ur irritating ex girlfriend .

took out my hair extention.
Now back to square one. hee. gatal :p

i fall down the stairs and that is so embarrasing, tak cool ok :0
Working later, gonna take a short nap before off to work.
Have a good day everyone.

BOTANIC GARDEN











Had an awesome day with them.
Laughter is the best medicine & i need more of that.






I miss those time.
The times when i feel the kemesraan between us.
i miss you.